Daisy

Harley, Daisy is really going crazy without you. I think that you were her protection. She shakes even more now and is afraid of every, little noise.

She even peed on my bed one day (on the blanket that I shared with you). I was not happy as I didn't want to wash it.

I really think she might die of a broken heart.

Daisy

Daisy is so lost without you, Harley. She really did love you.

I took her shopping at Pet Smart with Sydney and Sam last night and she was very happy to get out. I took her for a walk to the corner after work today. But, when we went out to dinner and left her alone, she did not like it. She stayed downstairs. She just mopes around all the time.

The Lowecki's

Carol next door just sent me a message. Uncle John told her what happened, and she wanted to see how I was doing. I told her not too good. I can't get out of this funk. I miss you so much. I wish that I spent more time with you. You were always there for me and I miss you so much.

I feel like Cybil Shepherd in "Chances Are."

Please no that I didn't want to let you go. Everyone convinced me that it was better for you. Even Daisy doesn't like me anymore because I didn't bring you back home. You know that I've been through a lot the past couple years, and nothing has been worse than this. The other stuff I could get past, but this pain won't go away.

I thought that I was being a baby because people have lost children and spouses, but you were my baby! People don't realize that you were all that I had.

I wish I knew you were okay and maybe not in pain anymore. Mine is never going to end.

Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day, Harley! I miss you and wish you were here to celebrate with me.

I love you with all my heart.


XOOXOX

For the Love of Harley Video

For the Love of Harley

Pure Country

I named Harley after the girl in George Strait's movie, Pure Country. Here's a song called "I Cross My Heart" from the movie, Pure Country.

Chaser the Border Collie

This dog has hair just like Harley's, breathes like Harley, and has the same eyes as Harley! Harley also used to know the names of all her toys and other things too (e.g., Pink Bunny, Grandma, Grandpa, Sydney, bath, etc.).

Watch the video: Chaser the Border Collie

Lullaby (Goodnight, My Angel)

This song by Billy Joel is very appropriate: Lullaby (Goodnight, My Angel)

Updated Name

The place that cremated Harley spelled her name wrong on the certificate, but they sent a new one with the correct spelling today. It was our last name that was spelled wrong.

A Message From Dr. Bob

Dr. Bob Lodine sent me a sympathy card, and he wrote...

"Harley had a long, wonderful life, a testament to your loving care. She was a real sweetheart and will be missed. I understand your loss."

I received a number of sympathy cards (from the Cullinane's, Aunt Connie & Uncle Al, the Bitz's, and my friend Lara).

Message From Deanna

My cousin Deanna sent me the following message today:

So I was able to dig up the card you gave me for Carmen. The words meant so much to me. I hope that they will help you too. (sending this in an email is not ideal but I know that I will never be able to find a card with a message as meaningful as this one.)

They will not go quietly,
the pets who've shared our lives.
In subtle ways they let us know
their spirit still survives.

Old habits still can make us
think we hear them at the door
Or step back when we drop
a tasty morsel on the floor.

Our feet still go around the place
the food dish used to be,
And, sometimes, coming home at night,
we miss them terribly.

And although time may bring new friends
and a new food dish to fill,
That one place in our hearts
belongs to them...
and always will.

Video

I've been busy creating a video of your life. You were soooo cute! My best, furry friend.

I'm glad that you were so photogenic and that we had a bunch of professional photos taken. I'm not sure why you became afraid of cameras as you got older. Very silly, girl!

Ashes to Ashes

Mom finally received your ashes today, but they spelled our last name wrong on your certificate and will have to send a new one.

Before mom came home, I took a nap, and had a dream that he was in a car accident, and delivered a very small container of your ashes.

Then, mom showed up with a tin that was much smaller than I expected. I told her to ask him where the rest of you is. I sure hope that nothing happened, Har.

Daisy sniffed your container. She's been really depressed without you. Even though she drove you crazy, she really liked you.

Now, you can be near me again, and sleep in our bedroom.

XOOXOX

Where Are You?

"A Peaceful Passage," the man who took you to be cremated was suposed to deliver you to Grandma at For Eyes yesterday, but I guess he was delayed because of the Blizzard. He didn't come today either. I hope that nothing happened. Wouldn't that be awful?

My Guardian Angel

Harley, you always watch out for your mommy! You had to be there with me this morning when I was driving to work, the day after the Blizzard of 2011. Some roads were decent, but Rte. 14 (Northwest Highway) in Cary was horrible. It was covered in patted down snow and ice. I approached with caution, but it did not good because the car just slid sideways and spun around facing oncoming traffic. Rte. 14 is a very busy, 2-lane stretch of road, and I didn't hit anyone or anything! I did have my 4 wheel drive on too. All I can say is it was a miracle! You had to be watching over me.

Thank you, girl! You are my Hero!

XOOXOX

Blizzard of 2011

You are so lucky that you missed the snow, Harley! I was home today because it was a state of emergency....it was really bad out. When our Internet/phone went out again, I started to take a nap, and I swore that I heard you bark (like you always did when you felt abandoned in the entryway).

Daisy is not so crazy for our food since you are gone. I guess that she just wanted to compete with you. She is a little boogar!

Blizzard

Harley, you would not like today's blizzard conditions, and tomorrow is supposed to be worse....20-30" of snow! You really wouldn't be able to walk in it.

I wish I tried the wheel cart for you (no matter what Grandma and Grandpa said).