One Year Since Your Death

It's been a long hard year for a lot of reasons, but mostly because I no longer have you by my side. I miss you every day. My pain has not gone away. I know that helped me get through so much with your love and affection. You were the best friend one could ever ask for.

ILife is too short, Har. I know that people think you lived a long life for a dog, but it wasn't long enough for me.

I love how you used to snuggle with me in bed, and how excited you would be to see me when I came home, and how you liked the sprinkler and playing with all of your toys. I loved taking you for rides in the car and giving you ice cream.

It's so hard to not be able to share those things with you anymore. It's like a piece of my heart is missing.

I will always love you!!!

Merry Crhistmas, Harley

I can't believe it's my first Christmas without you. You always loved Christmas and opening presents. I know you didn't like being cooped up in my car on Christmas Eve.

It doesn't feel like Christmas this year. We have had hardly any snow, and without you to share it, it's just not the same.

Never having a Christmas with you again is so difficult to comprehend. I hope you hear me when I talk to you. You know how much I loved you, and I always will.

I think of you and love you always, not just during the holidays.

XOOXOX
Your Mommy

You Were Near

As I was packing for two  back-to-back trips tonight, I swear that you were there and I was about to say something to you and then I realized that you are not here. It's so freaky, Har.

I wish you were still here, girl. But, how you hated when I would leave you. I wish that I spent more time with you.

I love you!

My Dream

I had a dream about you last night, Har. I was trying to keep you calm 'cuz you were growling at someone. It ended up being Mandy and Brian,, and you surprised me and let them pet you.

The Step

Grandma and Grandpa put another step in at the entrance. I don't know why they were so anxious to put one in after you were gone. It would have made your life much easier. I still picture you falling down when you went outside. It broke my heart, but being without you breaks my heart even more.

Happy Birthday, Lady!

Yesterday, September 5th, would have been your 16th birthday. Everyone is amazed that you were so old, but I know that you loved me so much and I loved you back, and that kept you strong.

I wore your necklace yesterday too.

I hope that you had a Frosty Paw to celebrate. You always loved those!

XOOXOX

Jamaican Me Crazy!

Harley, it's so hard to write to you because it's so sad. I got a necklace that has a heart that I put your ashes in. I took it to Jamaica with me and Gina. Now, you can go with me wherever I go. Grandma ordered me a different necklace that she thought was better so your ashes wouldn't fall out.

I aslo ordered a photo necklace of you too. It was one of your birthday photos.

Life is too short! I know that you lived a long time for a dog, but it's never long enough. It breaks my heart not to have you here. I almost wish that your ghost was here. I believe in them a little since our old house had one, but I guess you can't just ask one to appear. People would think I was crazy for talking to you anyhow!